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well it is through fate that finally i've met amira binte nasir, thru an occasion. I've always wanted to meet her this way, where i would be smiling like a goat. she does the same way too. An this very occasion is the wedding reception between my cousin Hamdan Wakimin being married to Anmilia Anwar Datt.

This very date, a memorable day to note. The secrets are out. There is no hidden agenda between the blood. At first, I told my mother not to tell amira's favourite auntie. I don't know what would the consequences be.

Then to my amazement, my father was like mingling with her parents. I'm kinda shocked. Wat's up with him. But it's a good move also, hahah at least her parents knew that my parents are both their kaki's. Sooner, they will go market every sunday. hahahaah. Amira's father is handsome in person. In the pictures, he looked fat. He didnt looked that fierce though.

There was this moment in time, where I was taking a photo shot with the two mempelai. I saw her walking down the aisle with her parents, they are leaving soon. As soon as the photo was done, I get down from the stage and tried to bump into her but she passed me already. And then my father told me to salaamed her parents. I hesitate.

"just salaam them, it doesn't matter. don't be rude" my father demand.

so i ran up to them, and approach firstly, cik zainab, her mother. I wanted to call their name, but i just called them "cik".

"Cik!"

Cik Zainab smiled widely with the merah menyala lipstick.

I turned left, her father. Smiling at me also.

I salam cik nasir also.

I don't know, I just felt so honoured to meet her parents. It's like that first ? hmmm maybe salam them before when I was small. But i still considered it as the first salam with them. It's like as though i salam a king's and queen's hand. I just wanna be a good son-in-law, i wanna make a good impression. Althought their parent's are strict, i know that they are doing it for a reason. More salam with her parents. I will count how many times.

AAHhhhhhh..i'm so contented.

thanks for the understanding, aunties and uncles.

the words of encouragement.

but there is one person in particular, mr sulaiman. argh!! demoralizing. okay bye.

lines of punishment. there goes the pictures of the preparation before amira's 17th birthday. creativity of love. i think amira knows why she is so lucky.

i'm so happy being around with her these days until i didnt update an entry on my birthday. well my birthday was a blast. It's the most memorable day ever for me. I've never celebrate my birthday like dat with anyone before. On the eve of my birthday, i was so restless that I kept going in and out of my room. my hunny was busy with something. *wrapping present eh ?* I was anticipating my birthday coz i have a gut feeling that she's gonna buy me a present although she said that she was broke and she's gonna give me a belated birthday gift. Well it doesn't even matter to me, a 62kg present would do. hehehe. ur presence is enough for me. On the eve, she was telling me that she's gonna bring me to this mystery place. A place for the both of us.

the next morning i woke up, i woke up at 10.45am becoz she called me to wake up and get dressed. she told me the clue, and the clue was, "lighthouse". So my first guess is, "east coast". I just have to decide on my guess and head to east coast. I was quite late actually.

The moment i reached east coast, she told me that she was tired after walking from the mcdonalds area to the lighthouse. I rent a twin-bike and cycled there. When i reach the east coast jetty, i was like looking for her..and she was sitting in one of the benches there. The setting was perfect. The place is quite empty. She was there wearing a purple sleeveless top, sitting patiently with a piece of bengawan solo chocolate creamy cake. HAHaahaha, she was so sweet. I was contented. parked the bicycle nearby and wanted to sit beside her but she asked me to sit in front of her. the cake was creamy delicious. I want some more dear. After the cake, I a styrofoam packaging in a plastic bag. She asked me to turned around and wait for her cue. After giving me the cue, i was like okay kinda shock ar. It's spaghetti..After eating a few forkfulls, i asked her did she use the prego sauce. To my amazement, she use the original method of doing spaghetti. she diced the onions, tomato..drain the tomato juice..hmmm it's nice. oregano..woo!! i was appreciative and impressed by the way she cook. u want to fight who can cook the most delicious spaghetti izzit ? hehehehehe.

bla..bla..bla...too lazy to type everything.

after east coast, we head to marina square, coz i wanted to eat swensen's ice cream. End up, eating at anderson's ice cream. we order hot waffles with cookies & cream and belgian chocolate. the strawberry is sweeter than ever. there's maple syrup on the waffle. everything is like so perfect today. 18th of february. After that the climax of today was going shopping.

We went shopping at..........................................ZARA!!!!! WEE!!! finally, i went shopping together with my hunny. The matter of fact is that i thought ZARA is for women but there is ZARA man. If i have a little bit more money, we will buy designer clothes okay dear ? Usually, we both dont have enough money to do all dat. it's always eating lunch at restaurants. and now, we shop for clothes. She's good at choosing colours. whenever i wanna find clothes, i will look for the designs and if she agreed on the colour only den i would buy it. I bought this basic long sleeve. and she bought this turquoise top. we are bought in high spirits after leaving zara. happy sha la la.. HApppy giler la i!! I wanna do everything with you. im so happpy...ice skating, roller blading, swimming..etc.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY?!!?!?!?!

nah, i'm not celebrating valentine's day. 14th of february, a day filled with love.

LOVE IS IN THE AIR

Love making, love-birds, love-hippos, lovey-dovey, love feast, love-philter, love-potion, lover's knot, lovestory, lovesick, lovesong, love token. there you go, phrases that begins with love. cool huh ? well i guess a lot of this things happen in this very particular day. St valentine, why do you created this day ?
Well a stalk of roses meant a lot of things. 1 stalk, 3 stalks, 9 stalks, 999 stalks. Well yesterday i saw the cost of 999 stalk of flowers, it costs a whooping of $2,800. Bloody hell so expensive, can buy wat ar with $2,800 ? let me think, a high end lan-gaming computer set with bose sound systems and a 3-in-1 printer system from canon. I'd wonder who will buy 999 roses for their valentines. But hey, if that lucky lady were to receive those roses, her face will turn red. If i were to be a woman, i will be so like, OMG!!! 999 Roses ? i will not count the roses, but as long the roses fills up the size of my room, dat's 999 roses. dont bother counting, becoz if i were to count, i will collapse due to hyper-tension.

Well just now was great. I made her a card and surprised her with a flower. i would bet that she was shocked to receive those cards and flowers. I was being secretive the day before. She was asking me, she feel so distant from me. Hahaha well actually there's a reason behind it. i took 4 hours to do the card. I bought the roses very early in the morning where the roses are still fresh. i requested for tulips but they were no where to be found. So in the end i bought bright red roses for her.I choose carefully just like a quality inspection officer. I didn't answer her phonecalls in the morning, becoz i dont want her to know that i'm buying something for her.

We went to east coast to have our so called picnic there. She cooked for me something, fried noodles with cheese hotdog, chicken nuggets and fried meat balls. So amira-licious i tell you. Oh, we rent a twin-bicycle. went to rock 1 and after eating went further to bedok jetty, a place we never discover before. There we went flying on east coast 9th clouds.

On the way back, i saw a few couples sleeping together. hugging and warmthness. But this particular couple got into a shocking position, yea they are doing it! it!! it!!! I'm not so sure, but hunny says the guy pull down the zipper. Oh man, in public ? east coast park ? bloody hell. aunties and ah-peks ? bloody hell la..

eh mat yoyo, sudah la lupekan die. silent reader. heh. lai ah!! lai!!

i've been sitting here sitting all alone on a sunny afternoon. my brother was sleeping. lonely as it seems. I need his advice, his lectures. I dont know i just love my brother and i began to appreciate of what he had done for me. Sad songs making me more down. Well right now the type of songs i should is hype. Bomfunk mc's freestyler makes me happy.Amira binte nasir, yes you were there for me. But i want to feel ur presence. Your presence is so much important to me.

I had enough of O-levels. well there's no use swearing at those cambridge markers or either the moe's staff doing the moderation. Yes, I improved but the amount of effort ? i myself not too sure about it. I studied with her. exchange notes. the amount of push that she pushed me when doing maths under block 166.

Syukur Alhamdullilah. I wanna say a couple of thanks to amira binte nasir for supporting me and she's been there for me, encouraging me in all aspects in my life. The level of understandings that she had for me. Every little effort of you are greatly appreciated. Secondly I wanna thank my friends (in random order) Anwar, Azhar Shafii, Abang Shafi for the confidence, Syafiq Hassan, Ashirah Nur dali, Hamdan Wakimin and last but not least Asyraff a.k.a Ashburn. I just got to know that he's my long distance cousin. We are related. haha wat a coincidence.

They were the ones who were been there for me since day 1. God bless.

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I have no mood to eat these days. breakfast and a couple of maybe bread will make me full already. I feel like I'm a baby who needs support every second now. I feel like i'm a precious cutest baby in this world where people who have to spoon-feed me everytime. Well dat's so very wrong of me. I need to be independant on my own. I need to be on my own in this life journey of mine. I only felt better after my mum, my dad, my brother talked to me. Only then i feel much better. my heart was relaxed just like when the rough seas has calmed down. My friends yea have been giving me advice, their advice was so addictive and convincing. but this what my brother told me.

"Dont care about what ur friends say to you. It's you. I know what's best for you. been there done that."

JAE...DAE...ITE...POLY..NS..WORK..MARRiAGe..FAMILY...CHilDreN..

If's that's the route that i'm taking. It will be like in 15 years time ?

I wanna take the freaking diploma as soon as possible. The diploma which is the key to workforce and marriage. I've been thinking about working life so much which is to earn money for many stuff. Cars, Marriage, Parents. I'm so obsessed with marriage. Why am I behaving like this. I've been thinking of the future so so far. I should narrow it down to the situation im facing now. Which is the path to poly. From there god will determine my "rezeki".

Goals in life changes as u get along in life - Zakaria Mohd Isa.

Faith to god. Faith to religion. consistent taqwa.

I love Zaharah Binte Mohd Ghazali.

I love Zaharah Binte Mohd Ghazali.

I love Zaharah Binte Mohd Ghazali

I love my Parents.
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My father: Why are feeling so tension ? are you disturb about financial diffculties ?

My father: You dont have to feel dat way. i just want you to study. About relationships ? yes i dont have objections to that. But get carried away with it too much.

I was lucky to have those kind of parents. But on the other hand, i make them feel down.

Rase tak sedap dalam hati,
menghapuskan harapan dari yang mengharapkan.

Mak, I will get there one day. Don't worry. When i'm working in the workforce, I'll promised to take care of you when ur old okay mum ? I will never show trantrums to you again. Be rude to you. all this while that I've been rude to you. I'm sorry. Gosh, this is very touching. I cried when typing this paragraph.

Well i guess that's about it that i'm facing right now. I guessed that i had filter out everything.

it's 1.37am i'm still waiting for her to call me. but she didn't call me.

well just now i met ash to discuss my results with him. he was the one who guided me thru-out all these while. He lifted me up in high spirits. He know facts from A to Z. He's like a father to me who could explain things in and out. giving me advices and all dat. what's this and what's that. He talk realistic stuff that makes me feel like he's worth keeping till the end.He's the one in a million. He's a caring friend who doesn't criticize others.

Well after the talkings like thoroughly with him, i've made up my decision. i haven't told my mum about it yet. maybe in the afternoon.He's like making decisions for me. I find it realistic too and i settle down with it.

Shortly, raihan a.k.a gold-digger is coming from china black after his performance.

Arrghh!! turn-off i supposed.

Well it was different as i expected. We were like talking about our relationships and stuff like dat. it was cool. we share different ideologies. And the three of us agree with it. hahaha. So every guy is experiencing it. It's normal, yeah i felt guilty, that i should act that way. Yeah! if only.. right raihan ? how i wish, how i could hope she would ***************************** me.

Hmmm.. i'm so happy la today. she called me. awwwwww.....*grins*

she made my day ? hmmm dont know. 2 person.

okay cya. sleeping beauty. cinderella must sleep. zzZZzz...

I'll reach out my hand to you
I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name
And I'll be there (I'll be there)

peace, hug, love.

i'll be out for a moment. u'll know how to reach me aight dear ?

i miss you, i need you.

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